The Spiritual Forum: What is the answer?

So I've been on this wonderful forum board with very "spiritually advanced" people. I have been wanting to leave this board for a very long while, but I kept staying because these people are VERY advanced... so there is a LOT I can learn from them.

One of these people, the one who made the board (head honcho), has the ability to "activate" individuals, "anchoring" a shortcut to all your psychic abilities. There have been many individuals that have already taken part in this. Of course, it is not cheap. The price is now 999$, and the core ability of this "anchor" is to HEAL. If you are not interested in healing the planet or others, you shouldn't bother applying.

Applying doesn't just take the want to heal either... you can apply, but you're not guaranteed accepted either. In order to get activated you need your HIGHER SELF's permission. When you apply, the person who is responsible for activating you will contact a higher self of you, and see if its even possible for you. There are many who were blocked, and many turned down. Something to take into consideration. It also seems that ypeople who were allowed to take part in this have all down various forms of healing/spiritual work, so they aren't just a random person who asks and higher self gave them permission and now they are spiritually advanced. They have all worked hard on their spiritual advancement beforehand in order to be accepted.

There are many other healers now, one that does beautiful readings, one that does a very advanced form of dream interpretation which contacts your soul group in order to get very precise dream interpretations for you, and a few other healers. All of which have their own spots on the forum home page.

I stay on this forum because of the many different types of people there are, and since I see everything as a learning experience, although I find this forum to be very toxic for me, I stay on it because it's similar to a library to me. A very beautiful library where each one of these members post amazing links, shared information, tips, etc.

However, the whole place is toxic for me as I get very nervous with people (online or offline it doesn't matter social events are extremely nerve wracking for me). This group of people are very straight forward, and if I make any mistakes in my writing or in how I explain myself, or not even getting what I'm supposed to be posting... things get misread and several people jump in to seemingly defend another person (I believe several times now it seems like I was attacking someone and had this happen).

For me, I've been told a lot that I looked very unemotional or did not know how to display feelings, not only do I have a hard time displaying feelings through outward appearances, but online through text as well. When I get confronted about this I overcorrect and mess things up even more. I remember one time (through collected data on peoples faces, reactions, tone, etc) I tried to ask a simple question "Who's baby is this?" I over did it and the way I asked seemed like I was thoroughly annoyed and I matter as well have asked "Who's damn baby is this crying over here?!"

I felt even worse realizing that it was my own sister's baby, and she was not happy with the tone of voice, emotion, etc that I had chosen to ask that simple curious question. *sigh* I tried to correct it after receiving the answer, and her face lightened up so I'd like to think that she understood my mistake... most likely not but I'd like to trust her face going from hard and ready to fight to gentle being a good hint of "oh you made a mistake." Probably not for the same reason but I'll take what I can get and move on.

I find myself retracting into myself more and more, the more I post on these forums. It seems like it might be time to finally step away from the forum. With every post, comment, or reply I make, the more fear I have for any replies from any of the members.

They seem to have a high sense of spiritual hierarchy (which I don't really like people looking down on others, but what am I to do about it as someone who looks up to others?). The main guy has a very blatantly obvious sense of favoritism, he obviously favors his activated individuals over those still climbing, he picks and chooses what he wants to pay attention to, if it isn't interesting to him he ignores it, and even with his own abilities... although his smaller "tools/devices" do SO much for people still learning to be with their selves, he's bored of them and sees them as useless and doesn't make them anymore (even though they are SO powerful!). He knows he's conceited and he's very busy with his self and higher more important callings with his activated members and such.

I think I'm most sensitive towards him as he is the only reason why I had joined the board in the first place... to be with him. As you can see I am very much infatuated with him. All his work, his help, his service to people, his concerns, his desires and calling, etc. I find myself following him wherever he decides to go, and every bit of me wants to do anything to stay within his sights or even try to get within vision (s-senpai, notice me///).

I think for now... I'll avoid this section of the library for now... for my own good. The question? "Will I leave this forum?" My answer? I'm scared. It is a reaction, but it is my answer. I wonder what I'll do from here.

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Advice on Shielding

Why do I need shielding?
In my opinion, I don't think you need them if you're not into all of this. If you don't deal with deeper spiritual things, then you don't need them.

"If you shield yourself, you give yourself things to be protected from." However, someone verified for me, "That is possible if done through fear. If a person is simply taking responsibility for their personal space it brings growth."

Even though, when I first started diving into balancing and healing my chakras, training myself to relearn aura viewing, and all that good stuff... I didn't really get into shielding. I only started looking into different methods of creating/programming shields when someone who usually balances/clears my chakras and cuts off negative/unwanted cords for me... suggested I do so (the person who actually verified the above italicized statement). Seeing as I kept getting corded to... eheh.

My current  method of shielding; from: http://www.mysticalwonders.org/group/about9202.html&highlight=shield

CREATION PROCESS

Here are step by step instructions on how to construct and program them. The quickest way is to find someone who will work with you to create a PERSONAL shield. It is not that difficult.

Step #1) Visualize a color you obtain intuitively and project it onto the forearm of this person. Next, project your energies into that color to see if they will penetrate that particular color. Now use another color then another until you find one which your energies will not penetrate. The person helping you will feel the heat from your energy if it penetrates the colors.

You will notice that some colors repel your energies much better than others. You will also find one which simply will not allow your projected energy to pass through. That is the color to use for the shield you will create.

Step #2) Create the shield configuration for your body. Create it to conform to the contours of your body, like a glove except not skin tight. This shield will be soft, pliable, light as a feather and very comfortable. It is also transparent and porous. Leave about two inches between your physical body and the energy shield.

Step #3) Fill the two inch space between your body and the shield with energy that portrays LOVE to you. I use a particular shade of pink as that representation. Intensely visualize this energy with a loving attitude as you place it in the two inch space, for this is what you will be continually surrounded with.

This shield is porous, so anything that is love will flow through it to you, but anything negative cannot penetrate and will automatically ground itself. If negative energy is projected towards you, love energy from within your shield will instantly and automatically be sent back to the origin of the directed negativity. Never retaliate with a negative response.

When shielding your MATERIAL POSSESSIONS you can use the same shield you just created only without the two inch space and love energy if you wish. Also know that shielding can extend from your person to any distance for which it is programmed. I program them for flexibility to go any distance needed to provide protection. For instance, while driving through a forest I extend it outward three hundred feet in all directions to warn animals of my approaching vehicle.

Here's some comments from the actual page, where one person asks for help on visualization; these answers should help you if you feel you need some help for that particular part of the creation process.

Advice from IK: imagination is important in matters of shield based defense. Don't stop at a basic platonic shield, get creative with it! When I was into shields and such mainstream energy manipulations, I set up a fractal shield that would cause attacks to get lost in the intricacies before launching out from another direction. I thjink it was pretty effective for me.

Advice from ARCi: There are many versions or methods. It needs to filter negative frequencies while allowing all else to pass through. It will not shield you from lessons. In fact the moment you get irritated or express a negative emotion it shuts down and becomes lesson time.

What it does is keep the junk from others from invading your energy. But if you choose to focus on a negative perception, such as judging another person, his 'junk' then has access to you. In daily life because our emotions are so all over the wall it is an easy thing for negative energies to access us, and possibly retain connection.

On average a thoughtform type of shield will need to be charged about 3 times a day. After doing it for a while it becomes a habit that you do not need to think about. I think it is possible to use the aura as well, but I have not personally tried that yet.

As far as programming a shield, I have done successful tests regarding damaging sun rays, mosquitos, bacterial and viral pathogens. Not so sure about chemical pathogens.

As a faster method of learning I would recommend that anyone interested in these type of tools find a partner and both learn hypnosis. It becomes a simple thing to move out of your body to view your own handiwork, along with the simplicity of trialing different programs and modes of vision, plus activation of other psi talents.

A method my friend teaches.http://www.mysticalwonders.org/group/about9202.html&highlight=shield

This info is a little deep for most, as it mentions some of the interdimensional tools http://www.reikipath.org/valley-of-silence/clearing-negative-psychic-energies/?wap2

I also found that Michael is the energy associated with protection, and when invoking into my shield it triples in strength.